How my mental illness turned into winning enlightenment

“Like failure, chaos contains information that can lead to knowledge — even wisdom.” Toni Morrison’s quote echoes in my head as I’m writing this. It’s impressive that the author’s words accurately summarize my experience with mental illness in such short, all-embracing sentence. I still remember the day I told my university lecturer about the wish…

I cried in Amsterdam

I made my first trip to Amsterdam two days ago. Exactly two weeks after I arrived in Netherlands (read my article Apeldoorn, new town new life). I and my flatmate were munching freshly baked pastries at the lovely Bakker Bart on Stationsplein street. It’s walking distance to the station and we got nothing to do…

Apeldoorn, new town new life

I’m depressed. It’s been almost a week since my arrival here in Apeldoorn, Netherlands but it feels like a year already. I cry every day, not that kind of sappy tears though. I’m just deeply infected with a strange vision of no future, no hope. But it’s even weirder that I’m typing down depressed shit…